All Jumbled Up
How do I say what I feel
Its been so long since I felt this way.
Someone broke my heart to a million pieces
And I was never the same again for a long time
I was afraid to reach out
I was afraid to feel again
Truth be told I thought I'd never feel things again
Now how you tell someone you want more
When in the past I've done that and been rejected
Or even hurt horribly
Cause they told me I wasn't worth it anyways
Makes you wonder what you have to do different
Is it the look in my eyes
Is it the clothes I was wearing
Is it the fact I wasnt a fashion doll body type
I don't look like a beauty queen and never will
I'll never know the truth
Is it because I am not good enough
Does my intelligence scare you
Or the fact I have a good job
A place of my own and a car to drive too
How can I say I'd love more from someone
But not look bad in the process
My heart can't handle the rejection anymore
Its been shattered too many times before
Its comes together only to break again
I want more again but I dont want to be afraid more
I want to give back what love others have shown me
to someone that will take it and accept it and cherish it
And not cause me to hurt again and make me feel unlovable
I have the faith sometimes but not always in myself
Maybe someday....before i grow old and gray.
I'll be told I am lovable, and wanted and more.